DISGUISE...

People always see me laughing, smiling, like there's nothing that would make me really bad! but, behind those smiles or laughs is sadness;
I only cry when I'm alone especially at night.
Before, i was never like this. i became a little bit more emotional;

They think they know everything about me, but they don't. Only God does.
i can never show a sad face to anyone or even cry! i would rather cry it all out alone than cry to someone and tell what's wrong.


IMMATURE MUCH?!

i try so hard to be matured enough! maybe because someone told me that I'm so immature. and that's what everyone sees in me! ugh!!!



WHAT I WANT!

I'm tired of always being misunderstood! i want to move out and live a new life! i want a friend that is really easy to talk to. someone whom i can share my secrets with or problems....everything about me!





(blogging is just something that helps me make feel better. this is like my best friend, too. :] )

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no one understands about how i feel when talking about my sickness. i hate it! it makes me feel so emotional! and i really hate that feeling!

You don't know the feeling of having the sickness that i have. I don't feel like I'm a normal person. i can't do anything that would make me really tired, like, playing badminton, volleyball or any other sports! all i can play is board games! Computer games! and that sucks! you cant have much fun in your life. i just want to feel like im like everyone else...NORMAL people. even in finding schools for college, i cant go to universities! how i wish i could! that's why i am here in informatics..

my hands are not like any other. i cant wave like people do when they say 'hi' or 'goodbye'. i cant write too much cause my hands would get stiff. there are lots of things  i cant do that i wish i could!!!

i hate it when people insult me.
you just dont know it.
it's hard to feel like this everyday...

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Joe or Nick?! Nick or Joe?!


oh my jonas! they're both hot and sexy!! i love them both! but i dont know who's my number one! lol.
well, ok.. let's see:

Joe--

HOT
SEXY
HANDSOME
INCREDIBLY HUMOROUS
SWEET
AWESOME SINGER
IMMATURE. LOL!!!
PLAYS SOME MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS




Nick--

HOT
STUD MUFFIN
GOOD LOOKING
SWEET
ADORABLE
AWESOME SINGER
OFF THE CHAIN
PLAYS EVERY MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS



oh my jonas! see what i  mean?!! ugh..
anywho... i still love them both. oh and also kevin. hahah! but he's kinda like my older brother. lol!!!

JONAS BROTHERS all the way baybeh!!! :D

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I didn't want to say I'm sorry
For breaking us apart
I didn't want to say it was my fault
Even though I knew it was
I didn't want to call you back
Cause I knew that I was wrong
Yeah, I knew I was wrong

One in the same, never to change
Our love was beautiful
We got it all
Destined to fall
Our love was tragical
Wanted to call
No need to fight
You know I wouldn't lie
But tonight, we'll leave it on the line

Listen baby!
Never would've said forever
If I knew we'd end so fast
Why did you say I love you
If you knew that it wouldn't last?
Baby, I just can't hear what you're saying
The line is breaking up
Or is that just us?
Or is that just us?!

One in the same, never to change
Our love was beautiful
We got it all
Destined to fall
Our love was tragical
Wanted to call
no need to fight
You know I wouldn't lie
But tonight, we'll leave it on the line

Tried to call again and get in your mailbox
Like a letter left unread
Apologies are often open-ended
But this one's better left unsaid

One in the same, never to change
Our love was beautiful
We got it all
Destined to fall
Our love was tragical
Wanted to call
No need to fight
You know I wouldn't lie
But tonight, we'll leave in on the line
We'll leave in on the line
(yeah, oh yeah)
We'll leave in on the line tonight 

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i like you
but i CAN'T like you
it's FORBIDDEN

you always make me laugh and smile
and i like it when you do that

the first time i saw you
i didn't know that i would like you someday
which i do now

it's really sad to think
that we can't be together
'cause it's FORBIDDEN!

that's why i'll just have
to keep this feelings forever
and try to find someone else... :'(

but i also wonder if you feel the same way about me
and please tell me if you do
cause im dying to know!

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Everyday I sit here waiting 
Everyday just seems so long 
And now I've had enough of all the hating 
Do we even care, it's so unfair 
Any day it'll all be over 
Any day there's nothing new 
And now I just try to find some hope 
To try and hold onto 
And it starts again 
It'll never end 

I'm heavily broken 
And I don't know what to do 
It just seems like I'm choking 
And I can't even move 
When there's nothing left to say 
What can you do 
I'm heavily broken 
And there's nothing I can do 

Almost giving up on trying 
Almost heading for a fall 
And now I'm screaming
I've gotta keep on fighting 
But then again 
It doesn't end 

I'm heavily broken 
And I don't know what to do 
It just seems like I'm choking 
And I can't even move 
When there's nothing left to say 
What can you do? 
I'm heavily broken 
And there's nothing I can do
And there's nothing I can do

Feels like I'm drowning 
I'm screaming for air 
(Screaming for air) 
Louder I'm crying 
And you don't even care 

I'm heavily 
And I don't know what to do 
Could you see that I'm choking 
And I can't even move 
(What can I do) 
When there's nothing left to say 
What can you do 
I'm heavily broken 


I'm heavily broken 
And I don't know what to do 
Can you see that I'm choking 
And I can't even move 
When there's nothing left to say 
What can you do 
I'm heavily broken 

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number one is.. JORDAN PRUITT!
she's really a great singer and a very nice girl.

next one is...
esp. the hot, good looking, & sweet  JONAS BROTHERS!


also the Veronicas.. love them!



i also love, Demi Lovato, Ashley Tisdale, Aly and Aj, etc.
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Broken hearts and last goodbyes
Restless nights and lullabies
Helps make the pain go away
I realize I let you down
Told you I'd be around
Building up the strength just to say

I'm sorry
For breaking all the promises
That I wasn't around to keep
You told me that this time
Is the last time
That I will ever beg you to stay
But you're already on your way

Filled with sorrow, filled with pain
Knowing that I'm the one to blame
For leaving your heart out in the rain

And I know your going to walk away
Leave me with the price to pay
Before you go I wanted to say

I'm sorry
For breaking all the promises
That I wasn't around to keep
You told me that this time
Is the last time
That I will ever beg you to stay
But you're already on your way

Can't make it alive on my own
But if you have to go
Then, please, girl
Just leave me alone
'Cause I dont want to see you and me
Go our separate ways
I want you to say
If it isnt too late

I'm sorry
For breaking all the promises
That I wasn't around to keep
You told me that this time
Is the last time
That I will ever beg you to stay
But you're already on your way
But you're already on your way

DOWNLOAD LINK---
http://www.sendspace.com/file/215n32
this is for people who don't have itunes are aren't able to get their cd. if you are then support the jonas brothers by actually buying!

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LYRICS---
Called her for the first time yesterday
Finally found the missing part of me
Felt so close, but you were far away
Left me without anything to say

Now I'm speechless, over the edge
I'm just breathless
I never thought that I'd catch this
Lovebug again
Hopeless, head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I'd get hit
By this lovebug again

I can't get your smile out of my mind
(Can't get you out of my mind)
I think about your eyes all the time
You're beautiful, but you don't even try
(Don't even, don't even try)
Modesty is just so hard to find

Now I'm speechless, over the edge
I'm just breathless
I never thought that I'd catch this
Lovebug again
Hopeless, head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I'd get hit
By this lovebug again

Kissed her for the first time yesterday
Everything I wished that it would be
Suddenly I forgot how to speak
Hopeless, breathless baby
Can't you see

Now I'm...

Now I'm speechless, over the edge
I'm just breathless
I never thought that I'd catch this
Lovebug again
Hopeless, head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I'd get hit
By this lovebug again
Lovebug again

DOWNLOAD LINK---
http://www.zshare.net/audio/165690300...
for people who don't have itunes or can't get their cd! otherwise support jb by buying their album :D

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I'm hot, you're cold
You go around like you know
Who I am, but you don't
You've got me on my toes
I'm slippin' into the lava
And I'm tryin' to keep from goin' under
Baby you turn the temperature hotterv Cause I'm burnin' up, burnin' up for you baby

C'mon girl
I fell (I fell)
So fast (So fast)
Can't hold myself back
High heels (High heels)
Red dress (Red dress)
All by yourself
Gotta catch my breath

I'm slippin' into the lava
And I'm tryin' to keep from goin' under
Baby you turn the temperature hotter
Cause I'm burnin' up, burnin' up for you baby

Walk in the room
All I can see is you (Oh)
Starin' me down
I know you feel it too

I'm slippin' into the lava
And I'm tryin' to keep from goin' under
Baby you turn the temperature hotter
Cause I'm burnin' up, burnin' up for you baby
Slippin' into the lava
And I'm tryin' to keep from goin' under
Baby you turn the temperature hotter
Cause I'm burnin' up, burnin' up for you baby
Yo, burnin' up in the place tonight You brothers sing it loud (And we're feelin' right) Get up and dance (Don't try to fight it)
Big Rob is for real (And that's no lie)
Stop, drop, and roll (And touch the floor, it keeps on burnin' up)
More and more
I got JB with me (Layin' it down)
Come on boys let's bring the chorus around
I'm slippin' into the lava (Burnin' up, burnin' up)
And I'm tryin' to keep from goin' under (Yeah)
Baby you turn the temperature hotter (Just c'mon)
Cause I'm burnin' up, burnin' up for you baby
Burnin' up (Yes sir)
Burnin' up for you baby

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